December 2009
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merry christmas
the tradition of everyone coming in my bedroom and jumping on me to wake up. opening presents in a specific order. breakfest while we all watch A Christmas Story, as it replays all day long. this definately is what i love, our own little traditions. but this year instead of 15 or even 20 family members crammed into a living room. it’s just us 4. quiet and intimate. the 3 people that mean the...
Jumping...failing
Haven’t felt this way in a long time.
What needs to happen for me to realize this? Me being home. Me seeing them. Me not having it. And I know it’s all I want and need.
It’s creating a wall around my life, my own little circle of trusting no one but myself. You’re right that hard exterior isn’t worth my time and shouldn’t waste what I really have to offer.
When...
adios
Another close to another tour. But this is the last tour of 2009. Ready to pack up this year and send it away. Shared to many laughs to count on these tours. Shed only enough tears that I could count on my hand. Encountered people I really never thought I would meet.
Bring me these new tours and new experiences. But I want to keep the new people and the close ones I have made this year, I think I...
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As seen on tv
You fall apart and lie awake. Open up your eyes, and everything is wasted. Your wasting away. And you cant tell I’m wasted, you’d be so beautiful if you just ignored everything I am, and everything that I’ve been. Broken up inside and I’ve been breaking all your lies. How can I honestly try again.
When they say go out with bang at the end of the year, I’m not to sure what they mean. I guess in my book it’d be to be happier then I was starting the year. But what if I’ve kept my peace through the year, of course I lost it a handful of times but I have definately regained it.
So taking this last tour in a stride, I’ve come to realize that I’ve gone out with a...